Entry #157

Doin pretty bad irl

2017-04-01 14:59:25 by Elias-Z

Ugh, hi there NG, long time no see.

So been a while since i last posted here, mainly because i'm focusing on college and a few other activities right now, but i've been having a bit of a shitty time lately and i really feel the need to talk about some of the issues that have been annoying me for a while.

So, in the span of just a few weeks, i've managed to get in shit with and even lose some of my best friends, temporarily fuck up relations with a few family members, get in trouble at college, and like these weren't bad enough, my anxiety and depression (which i've had for the last 2 years after i've lost some close people) are amplifying all these even more.

Despite these, i had great plans for this weekend, and this week i was in generally a good mood.

A bunch of first league fooball matches are taking place on my local stadium tomorrow (which i planned on attending), and in the evening Wrestlemania is taking place.

But just 2 days ago i learned that i gotta go see the doc because of a stupid ingrown toenail, and there i learned that i gotta have surgery on it.

Upon learning this i got really pissed of because i already had a surgery on it a few months ago (which hurt like hell), and it turns out it was completely useless and now i need another one.

I got into a pretty ugly argument with the docs there about it and after leaving and coming back home everyone's feeling like shit and it turns out if i don't get this stupid surgey in the next 2 weeks then i won't be able to go on the mountain trip that i've been planning since last year in this upcoming vacation. Dad's overreacted about it and is in a very shitty state right now (usually, when i got problems it's not that i'm that upset over them, but i'm more upset about them hurting my close ones) and i really don't know how to cheer up a bit about it.

And as if this wasn't enough, one of those football matches got cancelled and the bud which i planned attending the other one with is sick as hell and won't be able to come with me.

At this point, my mood is completely ruined and not even a sack full of money falling from the sky in front of me would help it in the slightest, i just hope i'm gonna be able to carry on a bit longer up until the vacation and things will get better.

Well that's all for now i guess.

Hope ya'll doin better than me right now xD

ps: no, this isn't an April Fools prank, sadly :v


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2017-04-05 15:22:31

Well that's shit. I hope you get those problems sorted out, and don't worry about your vacation, I'm sure you'll be able to go after your toenail surgery.

Elias-Z responds:

thanks for the support man, yeah i normally should, but i'm still a little worried that the surgery will be painful af xD